Self & I
A Memoir of Literary Ambition
Format:Paperback
Publisher:Eye Books
Published:28th Feb '19
Currently unavailable, and unfortunately no date known when it will be back

‘A moving lament for a vanished age’ – Financial Times
SHORTLISTED: New Angle Prize
The scene is a remote cottage in Suffolk in the 1990s.
Will Self, newly divorced, is the in-demand enfant terrible of the British literary scene. Matthew De Abaitua, an eager young writer fresh out of Malcolm Bradbury's Creative Writing course at the University of East Anglia, is excited to be hired as his ‘amanuensis’.
It’s not obvious what that intriguing job title will entail. In this unique, frank and often very funny portrait of one of our most talked-about and controversial literary figures, Self & I charts the highs and lows of the experience.
It is a compelling account of a remarkable time in Britain and British literature.
‘The title might nod to Withnail, as do some of the odd couple’s odder exploits – including the consumption of many a “special cigarette” – but this erudite yet hilarious account will resonate with anyone trudging in the footsteps of a more successful figure’ * The Oldie *
‘This book comes very close to being a classic memoir of literary apprenticeship. Hilarious..’
‘De Abaitua’s prose... is full of wit, playfulness and intelligence. Though he mourns the fact that literature since the 1990s has lost its cultural force, the denouement to his smart, funny memoir ends up being a paean to the novel itself’ * The Spectator *
‘A study of working-class ambition, an exegesis of the Self canon, a critique of masculinity, a window onto the last pre-digital moment, and a review of that hollow decade in which even the counter-culture was in hock to the establishment...’ * Times Literary Supplement *
‘[Matthew De Abaitua’s] memoir of six months working for Self begins as an intoxicated, madcap romp, before it takes some unexpectedly touching turns… The Self & I title is a deliberate homage to the funny, melancholy slovenliness of cult film Withnail & I… As we find out more about the author’s early life, myth separates itself movingly from reality… A final section about an old lost school friend is devastating too, beautifully exploring what happens when our dreams run away from us. Standing alone, Self aside, his tale really ascends’ * Mail on Sunday **** *
‘[Matthew De Abaitua’s] memoir of six months working for Self begins as an intoxicated, madcap romp, before it takes some unexpectedly touching turns… The Self & I title is a deliberate homage to the funny, melancholy slovenliness of cult film Withnail & I… As we find out more about the author’s early life, myth separates itself movingly from reality… A final section about an old lost school friend is devastating too, beautifully exploring what happens when our dreams run away from us. Standing alone, Self aside, his tale really ascends’ - Mail on Sunday **** || ‘A study of working-class ambition, an exegesis of the Self canon, a critique of masculinity, a window onto the last pre-digital moment, and a review of that hollow decade in which even the counter-culture was in hock to the establishment...’ - Times Literary Supplement || ‘De Abaitua’s prose... is full of wit, playfulness and intelligence. Though he mourns the fact that literature since the 1990s has lost its cultural force, the denouement to his smart, funny memoir ends up being a paean to the novel itself’ - The Spectator || ‘The title might nod to Withnail, as do some of the odd couple’s odder exploits – including the consumption of many a “special cigarette” – but this erudite yet hilarious account will resonate with anyone trudging in the footsteps of a more successful figure’ - The Oldie || ‘This book comes very close to being a classic memoir of literary apprenticeship. Hilarious..’
‘[Matthew De Abaitua’s] memoir of six months working for Self begins as an intoxicated, madcap romp, before it takes some unexpectedly touching turns… The Self & I title is a deliberate homage to the funny, melancholy slovenliness of cult film Withnail & I… As we find out more about the author’s early life, myth separates itself movingly from reality… A final section about an old lost school friend is devastating too, beautifully exploring what happens when our dreams run away from us. Standing alone, Self aside, his tale really ascends’ - Mail on Sunday **** || ‘A study of working-class ambition, an exegesis of the Self canon, a critique of masculinity, a window onto the last pre-digital moment, and a review of that hollow decade in which even the counter-culture was in hock to the establishment...’ - Times Literary Supplement || ‘De Abaitua’s prose... is full of wit, playfulness and intelligence. Though he mourns the fact that literature since the 1990s has lost its cultural force, the denouement to his smart, funny memoir ends up being a paean to the novel itself’ - The Spectator || ‘The title might nod to Withnail, as do some of the odd couple’s odder exploits – including the consumption of many a “special cigarette” – but this erudite yet hilarious account will resonate with anyone trudging in the footsteps of a more successful figure’ - The Oldie || ‘This book comes very close to being a classic memoir of literary apprenticeship. Hilarious..’
- Short-listed for New Angle Prize 2019
ISBN: 9781785630743
Dimensions: 198mm x 129mm x 19mm
Weight: 248g
259 pages