Before My Actual Heart Breaks
A journey of resilience and hope through life's challenges
Format:Paperback
Publisher:Cornerstone
Published:28th Oct '21
Should be back in stock very soon

This novel tells the story of Mary Rattigan, a woman reflecting on her past and seeking the love she deserves after years of hardship.
In Before My Actual Heart Breaks, Mary Rattigan reflects on her tumultuous life journey from a hopeful girl in troubled Northern Ireland to a weary mother of five. As a Catholic girl with a challenging family dynamic, she dreams of escaping her circumstances and finding happiness. Her best friend, Lizzie Magee, often reminds her that everyone wishes they could revisit their youth and make different choices. Yet, life has a way of leading us down unexpected paths, and for Mary, the road has been anything but smooth.
Years have passed since Mary first envisioned a life of freedom and joy. Instead, she finds herself grappling with the weight of her responsibilities and the remnants of a life filled with chaos and loss. The trauma of her early years lingers, and while the violence of her youth has subsided, the emotional scars remain. With each passing year, she has learned hard lessons about love, sacrifice, and the importance of self-worth. Now, as she navigates the complexities of her current situation, she must confront her past and the choices that have shaped her present.
As Mary stands at a crossroads, she must decide whether to muster the courage to seek the love and happiness she has long denied herself. Before My Actual Heart Breaks is a poignant tale of resilience, friendship, and the quest for personal redemption, inviting readers to reflect on their own journeys and the power of hope in the face of adversity.
This is in many ways a familiar story but it is told in such a fresh, entertaining, funny and moving way, it felt like I was reading something brand new. * Roddy Doyle *
Two pages into this book you know you've unlocked something special . . . the book is brightened up plenty by sunshine characters and the magnificence of Tyrone nature . . . Tish knows what she's talking about. * Irish Examiner *
A really lovely book. I loved reading it.
-- Mariella FrostrupDelaney's writing is a beautiful wave flowing lyrically through the life of Mary Rattigan. A touching tale of how one woman survives a tough beginning to eventually end up exactly where her heart belongs. -- Anne Griffin author of WHEN ALL IS SAID
I did not expect this debut to turn into the most exquisite love story, but it did, and I was besotted. * Red *
Mary is an eloquent narrator, conveying her and her husband's pain with exquisite and moving precision. The loneliness, grief and long-lasting repercussions of trauma are achingly real. The graphically described Troubles provide a powerful backdrop to this arresting and moving novel. * Daily Mail *
Gorgeous prose . . . my heart broke several times . . . Mary's voice is so raw. * Good Housekeeping *
This hard-hitting book sets one woman's struggle with the hand dealt to her against the backdrop of the Northern Irish Troubles. This powerful debut examines the bonds of hate - and love - in a story of one family. * The List *
Tish Delaney's writing is engaging and she has a strong eye for character and dialogue . . . Mary's story of finding love in the most unlikely of circumstances will draw readers in and you'd need a heart of stone not to be moved by the ending. * Daily Express *
[T]here is much to admire about this debut, from the energetic voice to the way the Troubles are knitted through the timeline. * Irish Times *
ISBN: 9781786090980
Dimensions: 198mm x 129mm x 23mm
Weight: 266g
384 pages