Am I Having Fun Now? Signed Edition
Anxiety, Applause and Life's Big Questions, Answered
Format:Hardback
Publisher:Pan Macmillan
Published:5th Jun '25
It is possible we may get a copy in future, but unfortunately unlikely
This hardback is available in another edition too:
- Hardback£18.99(9781035036882)

Honest, moving and of course very funny: award-winning comedian Suzi Ruffell tells the story of a life afflicted with anxiety, and asks the experts to answer some of life's big questions along the way. Perfect reading for fans of Strong Female Character by Fern Brady, How to Fail by Elizabeth Day and No Shame by Tom Allen.
'A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious.' - Romesh Ranganathan
Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?
Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)
And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart?
Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.
In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.
From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.
Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sarah Pascoe and Tom Allen.
'An honest, thoughtful and superb accompaniment to our anxious times. This is not just a book by a very funny comedian. It also acts as a soothing balm to the mysterious symptoms of anxiety. A brave and vulnerable book by a very, very funny woman.' -- Joe Lycett
'Funny, compassionate and true. Ruffell’s wit and kindness on the page soothes the soul and makes you feel less alone.' -- Elizabeth Day
'People will love this book.' -- James Acaster
'A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious.' -- Romesh Ranganathan
'Only Suzi Ruffell can take anxiety & make it funny. Relatable, hilarious & educational to boot.' -- Aisling Bea
'Brilliantly honest, beautifully written and will help so many people.' -- Josh Widdicombe
'An excellent book, I want to give everyone I know - from my teenage niece to my sixty-year-old Dad.
So brilliant.'
'A beautifully sensitive book from one of Britain's best comedians.' -- Tom Allen
'Honest, hilarious and totally relatable. Simply wonderful, I related so hard to every chapter. I LOVED IT.' -- Rosie Jones
A really funny and honest book. A work of such importance.' -- Jon Richardson
'Moving, funny, real, warm and beautiful. Fantastic.' -- Giovanna Fletcher
'Suzi has managed to write a memoir that acts as confidante, agony aunt and your best friend in one warm, honest and beautifully written book.' -- Jen Brister
'God, it made me laugh, at the same time think “oh yep-that’s like my little anxious brain box too” comfort and LOLs from one of the best in the biz.' -- Ellie Taylor
ISBN: 9781035036882-S
Dimensions: 225mm x 145mm x 25mm
Weight: 370g
256 pages