Lamento

In this masterful work of reverse autoficion, the multi-gendered performer and world history enactor Madame Nielsen stages a relentless trial of her former self.

Lamento is a love story that questions the possibility of reconciling the magic of infatuation with everyday life. The story begins with a fire – an image which permeates the novel. The narrator, a writer, meets a theatre artist; their love feels ecstatic and utopian, completely untouched by the outside world.

But with the birth of a child, the weight of the everyday turns their passion destructive. The woman fights for every minute she can to write, while the man abandons family life to focus on his art. Their private drama is further confronted by the jagged realities of colonialism and injustice, forcing them to see themselves as part of a violent history they cannot escape. As love turns to hate, we follow their restless search to understand the enigma of love.

In a startling act of reverse auto-fiction, Madame Nielsen – a legendary figure of the Danish avant-garde – inhabits the voice of the woman she once loved to interrogate the man she once was. The result is an unsparing reconciliation of gender and memory, a lament that strips away self-pity to expose the narcissistic cost of creative obsession, and a meditation on how gender alters our experience of the world.