As If
Format:Hardback
Publisher:Penguin Books Ltd
Published:26th Feb '26
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'A brilliant, strange and tender exploration of what it is to fail, keep failing, and fail better' Sarah Bernstein, author of Study for Obedience
Two men meet in a flat in London. They are total strangers and yet they look remarkably alike. Lewis is grieving his dead wife; Korine is hiding from his very-much-alive one. Lewis never had children; Korine is an ambivalent parent at best. Lewis is an erstwhile actor, too depressed to attend the big audition that has just fallen into his lap. Korine has tried a dozen dead-end jobs but never pursued his acting dreams.
Two men living mirror image lives. Each seeking a second chance to get things right. Each wanting what the other has.
As If is an existential farce about the road not taken. Surreal and slyly poignant, suffused with ironic melancholia, it is a parable for the twenty-first century everyman: a character trapped in reality’s hall of mirrors, endlessly searching for something to live for.
Wonderfully implausible and absurdly humorous, the latest novel from a Goldsmiths Prize-winner follows a rich tradition . . . As If is a great step forward, a maturing of Waidner's talent with no loss of the quixotic qualities that gave the other books their charm . . . It adds depth without sacrificing energy . . . Kafka and Beckett are good touchstones, because, like Waidner, they are very funny without telling obvious jokes . . . the language in As If never does what we expect . . . it gives the story an impressive dynamism * Daily Telegraph *
A daring doppelganger puzzle . . . The Goldsmiths prize-winner’s fifth novel channels The Comedy of Errors by way of Samuel Beckett . . . the novel feels calculatedly aloof, the emancipatory glee of Waidner’s past work giving way to a more subterranean drama shaped by psychic contortions of dissimulation and masquerade . . . A taut psychological puzzler, As If leaves behind antic cartwheeling – no UFOs or repurposed celebrity biographies – for suspense and ambiguity * Observer *
A surreal existential caper exploring identity and performance, midlife purpose and regret, and the difficulty of finding - and escaping yourself . . . Isabel Waidner makes a playful contribution to the literary tradition [of dopplegangers], following in the footsteps of Dostoevsky, Kafka and Beckett . . . Sly, absurd and poignant, it is a triumph of narrative voice * Spectator *
The new novel from the queer experimentalist extraordinaire Isabel Waidner . . . Waidner's writing, always dazzlingly clever and formally inventive, is here also deeply moving. As If is a great success and an intriguing departure: a dourly beguiling dark comedy about fluffing your lines halfway through the performance of a lifetime and being given another chance * Times Literary Supplement *
An existential farce that playfully explores the precarity of working life . . . In Waidner-world the surreal is always lurking, gleefully waiting to trip the reader up. As If uses the acting profession and its inherent themes of performance and doubleness to explore the precarity of work . . . Waidner possesses something of Orton’s macabre relish at kicking back at authority [and their] brand of anarchic dissonance and absurdist comic jolts buoy the novel along * Guardian *
One of Britain's most exciting writers * New Statesman, 'Best Fiction of 2026' *
Cult author Waidner has, over the course of four novels focusing on working-class, queer and British identity, become something of an underground national treasure * Daily Mail *
Funny and incisive, Waidner’s latest piece of genre-busting fiction is a surreal tale of two men with an uncanny resemblance to one another who cross paths and, essentially, swap lives . . . A very clever exploration of alternative lives and paths not taken * Marie Claire *
This is a stunning book with much to say about how grief can alter our life (or lives). A towering achievement from one of contemporary literature’s most original minds * Kirkus Reviews *
Every page is exhilarating -- Deborah Levy, author of 'August Blue'
ISBN: 9780241779187
Dimensions: 206mm x 136mm x 18mm
Weight: 255g
192 pages